It's back! Long standing patrons at Soul
Food know that my husband Darryl and I walked
the cancer path when he was diagnosed with bowel cancer in June
2000. Three years later it has returned and we are back on the cancer
The news that Darryl has cancer in his
bowel again has sent concentric ripples swirling through my world.
After taking biopsies during a routine examination of the colon
our surgeon sat, grim eyed, steeling himself to tell us that he
had found a narrowing within the bowel and that Darryl would have
to have major surgery. His eyes confirmed what we knew in our hearts
- we were back on the treadmill.
Days have passed! I have made all the
phone calls, written the emails and notified family and friends.
We have tried to pick up the pieces and retain some normalcy, to
continue to live. Sometimes we succeed and for blessed moments we
laugh and joke, work, shop and go about our business before the
operation that will plummet him back to where we were three years
ago. But then, seemingly out of nowhere we are stabbed with the
ice shard of reality. I tell a soul mate that there is this ice
shard stabbing into my back and she writes to tell me that...
"That IS what it feels like,
an ice shard, itís cold and sick and it strikes when you are thinking
about something else and going about your business suddenly it is
there sticking in you . . . ice. Sharp. Right between the shoulder
blades, right between your breasts, right in your gut . . .but if
you take the metaphor and embrace it, you may find that ICE WILL
My metaphor had touched a chord! My metaphor
not only resonated for someone else but provided a way of seeing
and offered a way forward. Perhaps, as she suggests, if I take the
shard of ice and look at it, analyze it and embrace it the dammed
thing will melt sooner rather than later.
Metaphors are my way of seeing. They
enable me to name that which cannot be named.
This journal is a tribute to the power
of the metaphor. The most recent entries appear first.
August 7th 2003 - Quaranta - Forty Days
June 29th 2003 - Out from under
the doona covers
June 13th 2003 - Creative Ideas
for Living Day to Day
June 8th 2003 - Signs
May 28th 2003 - Abdominal Surgery
May 21 2003 - Looking for Metaphors